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Published by Hachette Digital

ISBN: 9780748129041

All characters and events in this publication, other than those clearly in the public domain, are fictitious and any resemblance to real persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental.

Copyright © 2012 Matthew Dicks

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For Clara

CHAPTER 1

Here is what I know:

My name is Budo.

I have been alive for five years.

Five years is a very long time for someone like me to be alive.

Max gave me my name.

Max is the only human person who can see me.

Max’s parents call me an imaginary friend.

I love Max’s teacher, Mrs Gosk.

I do not like Max’s other teacher, Mrs Patterson.

I am not imaginary.

CHAPTER 2

I am lucky as imaginary friends go. I have been alive for a lot longer than most. I once knew an imaginary friend named Philippe. He was the imaginary friend of one of Max’s classmates in preschool. He lasted less than a week. One day he popped into the world, looking pretty human except for his lack of ears (lots of imaginary friends lack ears), and then a few days later, he was gone.

I’m also lucky that Max has a great imagination. I once knew an imaginary friend named Chomp who was just a spot on the wall. Just a fuzzy, black blob without any real shape at all. Chomp could talk and sort of slide up and down the wall, but he was two-dimensional like a piece of paper, so he could never pry himself off. He didn’t have arms and legs like me. He didn’t even have a face.

Imaginary friends get their appearance from their human friend’s imagination. Max is a very creative boy, and so I have two arms, two legs, and a face. I’m not missing a single body part and that makes me a rarity in the world of imaginary friends. Most imaginary friends are missing something or other and some don’t even look human at all. Like Chomp.

Too much imagination can be bad, though. I once met an imaginary friend named Pterodactyl whose eyes were stuck on the ends of these two gangly, green antennas. His human friend probably thought they looked cool, but poor Ptero dactyl couldn’t focus on anything to save his life. He told me that he constantly felt sick to his stomach and was always tripping over his own feet, which were just fuzzy shadows attached to his legs. His human friend was so obsessed with Pterodactyl’s head and those eyes that he had never bothered to think about anything below Pterodactyl’s waist.

This is not unusual.

I’m also lucky because I’m mobile. Lots of imaginary friends are stuck to their human friends. Some have leashes around their necks. Some are three inches tall and get stuffed into coat pockets. And some are nothing more than a spot on the wall, like Chomp. But thanks to Max, I can get around on my own. I can even leave Max behind if I want.

But doing so too often might be hazardous to my health.

As long as Max believes in me, I exist. People like Max’s mother and my friend, Graham, say that this is what makes me imaginary. But it’s not true. I might need Max’s imagination to exist, but I have my own thoughts, my own ideas and my own life outside of him. I am tied to Max the same way that an astronaut is tied to his spaceship by hoses and wires. If the spaceship blows up and the astronaut dies, that doesn’t mean that the astronaut was imaginary. It just means that his life support was cut off.

Same for me and Max.

I need Max in order to survive, but I’m still my own person. I can say and do as I please. Sometimes me and Max even get into arguments, but nothing ever serious. Just stuff about which TV show to watch or which game to play. But it behooves me (that’s a word that Mrs Gosk taught the class last week) to stick around Max whenever possible, because I need Max to keep thinking about me. Keep believing in me. I don’t want to end up out of sight, out of mind, which is something Max’s mom sometimes says when Max’s dad forgets to call home when he is going to be late. If I am gone too long, Max might stop believing in me, and if that happens, then poof.

CHAPTER 3

Max’s first-grade teacher once said that houseflies live for about three days. I wonder what the lifespan of an imaginary friend is? Probably not much longer. I guess that makes me practically ancient in the imaginary friend world.

Max imagined me when he was four years old and, just like that, I popped into existence. When I was born, I knew only what Max knew. I knew my colors and some of my numbers and the names for lots of things like tables and microwave ovens and aircraft carriers. My head was filled with the things that a four-year-old boy would know. But Max also imagined me much older than him. Probably a teenager. Maybe even a little older. Or maybe I was just a boy with a grown-up’s brain. It’s hard to tell. I’m not much taller than Max, but I’m definitely different. I was more together than Max when I was born. I could make sense of things that still confused him. I could see the answers to problems that Max could not. Maybe this is how all imaginary friends are born. I don’t know.

Max doesn’t remember the day that I was born, so he can’t remember what he was thinking at the time. But since he imagined me as older and more together, I have been able to learn much faster than Max. I was able to concentrate and focus better on the day I was born than Max is able to even today. On that first day I remember Max’s mother was trying to teach him to count by even numbers, and he just couldn’t get it. But I learned it right away. It made sense to me because my brain was ready to learn even numbers. Max’s brain wasn’t.

At least, that’s what I think.

Also, I don’t sleep, because Max didn’t imagine that I needed sleep. So I have more time to learn. And I don’t spend all my time with Max, so I’ve learned lots of things that Max has never seen or heard before. After he goes to bed, I sit in the living room or the kitchen with Max’s parents. We watch television or I just listen to them talk. Sometimes I go places. I go to the gas station that never closes, because my favorite people in the world, except for Max and his parents and Mrs Gosk, are there. Or I go to Doogies hot-dog restaurant a little ways down the road or to the police station or to the hospital (except I don’t go to the hospital anymore because Oswald is there and he scares me). And when we are in school, I sometimes go to the teachers’ lounge or another classroom, and sometimes I even go to the principal’s office, just to listen to what’s going on. I am not smarter than Max, but I know a lot more than him just because I am awake more and go places that Max can’t. This is good. Sometimes I can help Max when he doesn’t understand something so well.

Like last week Max couldn’t open a jar of jelly to make a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. ‘Budo!’ he said. ‘I can’t open it.’

‘Sure you can,’ I said. ‘Turn it the other way. Lefty loosy. Righty tighty.’

That is something I hear Max’s mom say to herself sometimes before she opens a jar. It worked. Max opened the jar. But he was so excited that he dropped it on the tile floor, smashing it into a million pieces.

The world can be so complicated for Max. Even when he gets something right, it can still go wrong.

I live in a strange place in the world. I live in the space in between people. I spend most of my time in the kid world with Max, but I also spend a lot of time with adults like Max’s parents and teachers and my friends at the gas station, except they can’t see me. Max’s mom would call this straddling the fence. She says this to Max when he can’t make up his mind about something, which happens a lot.

‘Do you want the blue popsicle or the yellow popsicle?’ she asks, and Max just freezes. Freezes like a popsicle. There are just too many things for Max to think about when choosing.

Is red better than yellow?

Is green better than blue?

Which one is colder?

Which one will melt fastest?

What does green taste like?

What does red taste like?

Do different colors taste different?

I wish that Max’s mom would just make the choice for Max. She knows how hard it is for him. But when she makes him choose and he can’t, I sometimes choose for him. I whisper, ‘Pick blue,’ and then he says, ‘I’ll take blue.’ Then it’s done. No more straddling the fence.

That’s kind of how I live. I straddle the fence. I live in the yellow world and in the blue world. I live with kids and I live with adults. I’m not exactly a kid, but I’m not exactly an adult either.

I’m yellow and blue.

I’m green.

I know my color combinations, too.

CHAPTER 4

Max’s teacher is Mrs Gosk. I like Mrs Gosk a lot. Mrs Gosk walks around with a meter stick that she calls her meter-beater and threatens students in a fake British accent, but the kids know she’s just trying to make them laugh. Mrs Gosk is very strict and insists that her students work hard, but she would never hit a student. Still, she is a tough lady. She makes them sit up straight and work on their assignments in silence, and when a child misbehaves, she says, ‘Shame! Shame! Let all the boys and girls know your name!’ and ‘You will get away with that nonsense when pigs fly, young man!’ The other teachers say Mrs Gosk is old-fashioned, but the kids know that she is tough because she loves them.

Max doesn’t like many people, but he likes Mrs Gosk.

Last year Max’s teacher was Mrs Silbor. She was strict, too. She made the kids work hard like Mrs Gosk does. But you could tell that she didn’t love the kids like Mrs Gosk, so no one in the class worked as hard as they do this year. It’s strange how teachers can go off to college for all those years to learn to become teachers, but some of them never learn the easy stuff. Like making kids laugh. And making sure they know that you love them.

I do not like Mrs Patterson. She’s not a real teacher. She’s a paraprofessional. This is someone who helps Mrs Gosk take care of Max. Max is different than other kids so he doesn’t spend the whole day with Mrs Gosk. Sometimes he works with Mrs McGinn in the Learning Center with other kids who need extra help, and sometimes he works on his speech with Mrs Riner, and sometimes he plays games with other kids in Mrs Hume’s office. And sometimes he reads and does homework with Mrs Patterson.

As far as I can tell, no one knows why Max is different from the rest of the kids. Max’s father says that Max is just a late bloomer, but when he says that, Max’s mom gets so angry that she stops talking to him for at least a day.

I don’t know why everyone thinks Max is so complicated. Max just doesn’t like people in the same way other kids do. He likes people, but it’s a different kind of liking. He likes people from far away. The farther you stay away from Max, the more he will like you.

And Max doesn’t like to be touched. When someone touches Max, the whole world gets bright and shivery. That’s how he described it to me once.

I can’t touch Max, and Max can’t touch me. Maybe that’s why we get along so well.

Also, Max doesn’t understand when people say one thing but mean another. Like last week Max was reading a book at recess and a fourth grader came over and said, ‘Look at the little genius.’

Max didn’t say anything to the boy, because he knew if he said something, the fourth grader would stay there longer and keep bothering him. But I know that Max was confused, because it sounded like the boy was saying that Max was smart even though the boy was actually being mean. He was being sarcastic, but Max doesn’t understand sarcasm. Max knew the boy was being mean, but only because that boy is always mean to Max. But he couldn’t understand why the boy would call him a genius, since being called a genius is usually a good thing.

People are confusing to Max, so it’s hard for him to be around them. That’s why Max has to play games in Mrs Hume’s office with kids from the other classes. He thinks it’s a big waste of time. He hates having to sit on the floor around the Monopoly board, because sitting on the floor is not as comfortable as sitting in a chair. But Mrs Hume is trying to teach Max to play with other kids, to understand what they mean when they sarcasm or joke around. Max just doesn’t understand. When Max’s mom and dad are fighting, Max’s mom says that his dad can’t see the forest for the trees. That’s like Max except with the whole world. He can’t see the big things because of all the little things that get in his way.

Today Mrs Patterson is absent. When a teacher is absent, it usually means that the teacher is sick or her child is sick or someone in her family has died. Mrs Patterson had someone in her family die once. I know this because sometimes the other teachers will say nice things to her like, ‘How are you holding up, dear?’ and sometimes they whisper to each other after she has left the room. But that was a long time ago. When Mrs Patterson is absent, it usually means that it is Friday.

There’s no substitute for Mrs Patterson today so Max and I get to stay with Mrs Gosk all day, which makes me happy. I don’t like Mrs Patterson. Max doesn’t like her either, but he doesn’t like her in the same way he doesn’t like most of his teachers. He doesn’t see what I see because he’s too busy looking at the trees. But Mrs Patterson is different than Mrs Gosk and Mrs Riner and Mrs McGinn. She never smiles for real. She’s always thinking something different in her head than what is on her face. I don’t think she likes Max, but she pretends that she does, which is even scarier than just not liking him.

‘Hello, Max, my boy!’ Mrs Gosk says as we walk into the classroom.

Max doesn’t like when Mrs Gosk calls him my boy because he is not her boy. He has a mother already. But he won’t ask Mrs Gosk to stop calling himmy boy because asking her to stop would be harder than listening to Mrs Gosk say my boy every day.

Max would rather say nothing to everyone than something to one person.

But even though Max doesn’t understand why Mrs Gosk calls him my boy, he knows that she loves him. He knows that Mrs Gosk is not being mean. Just confusing.

I wish I could tell Mrs Gosk not to call Max my boy, but Mrs Gosk can’t see or hear me and there’s nothing I can do to make her see or hear me. Imaginary friends can’t touch or move things in the human world. So I can’t open a jelly jar or pick up a pencil or type on a keyboard. Otherwise I would write a note asking Mrs Gosk not to call Max my boy.

I can bump up against the real world, but I can’t actually touch it.

Even so, I am lucky because when Max first imagined me, he imagined that I could pass through things like doors and windows even when they are closed. I think it’s because he was afraid that if his parents closed his bedroom door at night, I might get stuck outside the room, and Max doesn’t like to fall asleep unless I’m sitting in the chair next to his bed. This means that I can go anywhere by walking through the doors and windows, but never through walls or floors. I can’t pass through walls and floors because Max didn’t imagine me that way. That would’ve been too strange for even Max to think about.

There are imaginary friends who can walk through doors and windows like me, and some who can even walk through walls, but most can’t walk through anything and get stuck in places for a long time. That’s what happened to Puppy, a talking dog who got stuck in the janitor’s closet overnight a couple of weeks ago. It was a scary night for his human friend, a kindergartener named Piper, because she had no idea where Puppy was.

But it was even scarier for Puppy, because getting locked in a closet is how imaginary friends sometimes disappear for ever. A boy or girl accidentally (or sometimes accidentally on purpose) locks an imaginary friend in a closet or a cabinet or basement and then Poof! Out of sight, out of mind. The end of the imaginary friend.

Being able to pass through doors can be a life-saver.

Today I want to stay put in the classroom because Mrs Gosk is reading Charlie and the Chocolate Factory aloud to the class, and I love it when Mrs Gosk reads. She has a whispery, thin voice, so all the kids must lean in and be absolutely silent in order to hear, which is great for Max. Noises distract him. If Joey Miller is banging his pencil on his desk or Danielle Ganner is tapping her feet on the floor like she does all the time, then Max can’t hear anything but the pencil or the feet. He can’t ignore sounds like the other kids can, but when Mrs Gosk reads, everyone must be perfectly quiet.

Mrs Gosk always chooses the best books and tells the best stories from her own life that somehow relate to the book. Charlie Bucket does something crazy and then Mrs Gosk tells us about a time when her son, Michael, did something crazy, and we all laugh our heads off. Even Max sometimes.

Max doesn’t like to laugh. Some people think it’s because he doesn’t think things are funny, but that is not true. Max doesn’t understand all funny things. Puns and knock-knock jokes make no sense to him, because they say one thing but mean another. When a word can mean a bunch of different things, he has a hard time understanding which meaning to choose. He doesn’t even understand why words have to mean different things depending on when you use them, and I don’t blame him. I don’t like it much, either.

But Max finds other things hilarious. Like when Mrs Gosk told us how Michael once sent twenty cheese pizzas and the bill to a schoolyard bully as a joke. When the police officer came to their house to scare Michael, Mrs Gosk told the police officer to ‘Take him away’ to teach her son a lesson. Everyone laughed at that story. Even Max. Because it made sense. It had a beginning, a middle, and an end.

Mrs Gosk is also teaching us about World War II today, which Mrs Gosk says is not in the curriculum but should be. The kids love it, and Max especially loves it because he thinks about wars and battles and tanks and airplanes all the time. Sometimes it is the only thing that he thinks about for days. If school was only about war and battles and not math and writing, then Max would be the best student in the whole wide world.

Today Mrs Gosk is teaching us about Pearl Harbor. The Japanese bombed Pearl Harbor on 7 December 1941. Mrs Gosk said that the Americans were not ready for the sneak attack because they couldn’t imagine the Japanese attacking us from so far away.

‘America lacked imagination,’ she said.

If Max had been alive in 1941 things might have been different because he has an excellent imagination. I bet that Max would have imagined Admiral Yamamoto’s plan perfectly, with the midget submarines and the torpedoes with the wooden rudders and everything else. He could have warned the American soldiers about the plan because that is what Max is good at. Imagining things. He has a lot going on inside of him all the time so he doesn’t worry so much about what is going on outside him. That’s what people don’t understand.

That’s why it’s good for me to stick around Max whenever I can. Sometimes he doesn’t pay enough attention to the things around him. Last week he was about to get on the bus when a big gust of wind blew his report card right out of his hands and between bus 8 and bus 53. He ran out of line to get it, but he didn’t look both ways when he did, so I yelled, ‘Max Delaney! Stop!’

I use Max’s last name when I want to get his attention. I learned that from Mrs Gosk. It worked. Max stopped, which was good, because a car was passing by the school buses at that moment, which is illegal.

Graham said that I saved Max’s life. Graham is the third imaginary friend at the school right now, as far as I know, and she saw the whole thing. Graham is a girl but she has a boy’s name. She looks almost as human as I do, except her hair stands up like someone on the moon is pulling on each individual strand. It doesn’t move. It’s as solid as a rock. Graham heard me yell at Max and tell him to stop, and then after Max was back in line, she walked over to me and said, ‘Budo! You just saved Max’s life! He would’ve been squished by that car!’

But I told Graham that I saved my own life, because if Max ever died, I think I would die, too.

Right?

I think so. I’ve never known an imaginary friend whose human friend died before he disappeared. So I’m not sure.

But I think I would. Die, I mean. If Max died.

CHAPTER 5

‘Do you think I’m real?’ I ask.

‘Yes,’ Max says. ‘Hand me that blue two-pronger.’

A two-pronger is a kind of Lego. Max has names for all the Lego pieces.

‘I can’t,’ I say.

Max looks at me. ‘Oh, yeah. I forgot.’

‘If I’m real, then why are you the only one who can see me?’

‘I don’t know,’ Max says, sounding irritated. ‘I think you’re real. Why do you keep asking me?’

It’s true. I ask him a lot. I do it on purpose, too. I’m not going to live for ever. I know that. But I’m going to live as long as Max believes in me. So if I force Max to keep insisting that I’m real, I think he will believe in me longer.

Of course, I know that by constantly asking him if I’m real, I might be putting in his head the idea that I am imaginary. It’s a risk. But so far, so good.

Mrs Hume once told Max’s mom that it’s ‘not uncommon for kids like Max to have imaginary friends, and they tend to persist longer than most imaginary friends’.

Persist. I like that word.

I persist.

Max’s parents are fighting again. Max can’t hear because he is playing video games in the basement and his parents are screaming at each other in whispers. They sound like people who have been yelling for so long that they have lost their voices, which is actually half true.

‘I don’t care what the fucking therapist thinks,’ Max’s dad says, his cheeks turning red as he whisper-yells. ‘He’s a normal kid … he’s just a late bloomer. He plays with toys. He plays sports. He has friends.’

Max’s dad is not correct. Max doesn’t have any friends other than me. The kids at school either like Max or hate Max or ignore Max, but none of them are his friend, and I don’t think he wants any of them to be his friend. Max is happiest when he is left alone. Even I bother him sometimes.

Even the kids at school who like Max treat him differently. Like Ella Barbara. She loves Max, but she loves him in the same way a kid loves a doll or a teddy bear. She calls him ‘my little Max’ and tries to carry his lunchbox to the cafeteria and zip up his coat before recess, even though she knows that Max can do those things for himself. Max hates Ella. He cringes every time she tries to help him or even touch him, but he can’t tell her to stop because it’s easier for Max to cringe and suffer than speak up. Mrs Silbor kept Ella and Max together when she sent them on to third grade because she thought that they were good for each other. That’s what she told Max’s mom at the parent–teacher conference. Max might be good for Ella, because she gets to play with him like he’s a doll, but Ella is most definitely not good for Max.

‘He is not a late bloomer and I wish you’d stop saying that,’ Max’s mom says in the tone she uses when she’s trying to stay calm but is having a hard time doing so. ‘I know it kills you to admit it, John, but that’s just the way it is. How could every expert we meet be wrong?’

‘That’s the problem,’ Max’s dad says, his forehead turning red and blotchy. ‘Not every expert agrees and you know it!’ When he speaks, it’s like he’s firing his words from a gun. ‘No one knows what is going on with Max. So how is my guess any worse than the opinions of a bunch of experts who can’t agree on a thing?’

‘The label isn’t important,’ Max’s mom says. ‘It doesn’t matter what is wrong with him. He needs help.’

‘I just don’t get it,’ Max’s dad says. ‘I played catch with him in the backyard last night. I’ve taken him camping. His grades are good. He doesn’t get in trouble at school. Why are we trying to fix the poor kid when there’s nothing wrong with him?’

Max’s mom starts to cry. She blinks and her eyes fill with tears. I hate when she cries, and so does Max’s dad. I have never cried before, but it looks awful.

‘John, he doesn’t like to hug us. He can’t make eye contact with people. He flips out if I change the sheets on his bed or switch brands of toothpaste. He talks to himself constantly. These are not normal kid behaviors. I’m not saying he needs medication. I’m not saying that he won’t grow up and be normal. He just needs a professional who can help him deal with some of his issues. And I want to do it before I get pregnant again. While we can focus on just him.’

Max’s dad turns and leaves. He slams the screen door behind him on the way out. It goes whack-whack-whack before it stops moving. I used to think that when Max’s dad walked away from an argument, it meant that Max’s mom had won. I thought his dad was retreating like Max’s toy soldiers retreat. I thought he was surrendering. But even though he is the one who retreats, it doesn’t always mean that he has surrendered. He has retreated lots of times before, slamming that door and making it go whack-whack-whack, but then nothing changes. It’s like Max’s dad has pressed the pause button on the remote control. The argument is paused. But it is not over.

Max, by the way, is the only boy I have ever seen who makes toy soldiers retreat or surrender.

Every other boy makes them die instead.

I’m not sure if Max should see a therapist and, to be honest, I’m not exactly sure what a therapist does. I know some things that they do, but not everything, and it’s the everything that makes me nervous. Max’s mom and dad are probably going to fight about this again and again, and even though neither one will ever say, ‘Okay, I give up!’ or ‘You win!’ or ‘You’re right,’ Max will eventually go to the therapist because, in the end, Max’s mom almost always wins.

I think Max’s dad is wrong about Max being a late bloomer. I spend most of the day with Max and I see how he is different from the other kids in his class. Max lives on the inside and the other kids live on the outside. That’s what makes him so different. Max doesn’t have an outside. Max is all inside.

I don’t want Max to see a therapist. Therapists are people who trick you into telling the truth. They can see inside your head and know exactly what you are thinking, and if Max is thinking about me when he’s talking to the therapist, the therapist will trick Max into talking about me. Then maybe he’ll convince Max to stop believing in me.

But I still feel bad for Max’s dad, even if Max’s mom is the one who’s crying now. Sometimes I wish I could tell Max’s mom to be nicer to Max’s dad. She is the boss of the house, but she’s also the boss of Max’s dad, and I don’t think it’s good for him. It makes him feel small and silly. Like when he wants to play poker with friends on a Wednesday night but he can’t just tell his friends that he will play. He has to ask Max’s mom if it’s okay for him to play, and he has to ask at the right time, when she is in a good mood, or he might not be able to play.

She might say, ‘I could really use you at home that night,’ or ‘Didn’t you play last week?’ Or, worse, she might just say, ‘Fine,’ which really means, ‘It is not fine and you know it and if you go, I am going to be mad at you for at least three days!’

It reminds me of how Max would have to ask permission to visit a friend, if Max ever wanted to play with anyone but me, which he doesn’t.

I don’t understand why he has to ask permission, but I really don’t understand why Max’s mom would want to make him ask permission. Wouldn’t it be better if Max’s dad just got to choose what he did?

It’s doubly worse because Max’s dad is a manager at Burger King. Max thinks that this is one of the best jobs in the world, and if I ate bacon double cheeseburgers and small fries, then I’d probably feel the same way. But in the adult world, a Burger King manager is not a good job at all, and Max’s dad knows it. You can tell by the way he doesn’t like to tell people about his job. He never asks people what their job is, and that’s the most popular adult question ever asked in the history of the world. When he has to tell someone what his job is, he looks at his feet and says, ‘I manage restaurants.’ Getting him to say the words Burger King is like trying to get Max to choose between chicken noodle and vegetable beef soup. He tries everything he can not to say those two words.

Max’s mom is a manager, too. She manages people at a place called Aetna, but I can’t figure out what they make at her job. Definitely not bacon double cheeseburgers. I went to her job once, to try to figure out what she did all day, but everyone just sits in front of computers in these tiny boxes without lids. Or they sit around tables in stuffy rooms and tap their feet and look at the clock while some old man or woman talks about stuff that nobody cares about.

But even though it’s boring and they don’t make bacon double cheeseburgers, you can tell that Max’s mom has a better job because the people in her building wear shirts and dresses and ties, and not uniforms. She never complains about people stealing or not showing up to work like Max’s dad does. And sometimes Max’s dad works at five in the morning, and sometimes he works all night long and comes home at five in the morning. It’s weird because even though Max’s dad’s job seems a lot harder, Max’s mom makes more money and adults think she has a much better job. She never looks at her feet when she tells people what she does.

I’m glad that Max didn’t hear them arguing this time. Sometimes he does. Sometimes they forget to whisper-shout and sometimes they fight in the car, where it doesn’t matter if you whisper-shout. When they fight, it makes Max feel sad.

‘They fight because of me,’ he said to me once. He was playing with Lego, which is when Max likes to talk about serious things the most. He doesn’t look at me. He just builds airplanes and forts and battleships and spaceships while he talks.

‘No they don’t,’ I said. ‘They fight because they’re grown-ups. Grown-ups like to argue.’

‘No. They only argue about me.’

‘No,’ I said. ‘Last night they argued about what show to watch on the television.’

I had been hoping that Max’s dad would win so we could watch the crime show, but he lost and we had to watch some stupid singing show.

‘That was not an argument,’ Max said. ‘That was a disagreement. There’s a difference.’

These were Mrs Gosk’s words. Mrs Gosk says that it’s okay to disagree but that doesn’t mean you are allowed to argue. ‘I can stomach a disagreement,’ she likes to say to the class. ‘But I can’t stand to listen to an argument in my presence.’

‘They only argue because they don’t know what’s best for you,’ I said. ‘They’re trying to figure out what is right.’

Max looked at me for a minute. He looked mad for a second, and then his face changed. It got softer and he looked sad. ‘When other people try to make me feel better by twisting words, it only makes me feel worse. When you do it, it makes me feel worst of all.’

‘Sorry,’ I said.

‘It’s okay.’

‘No,’ I said. ‘I’m not sorry for what I said, because it’s true. Your parents really are trying to figure out what is right. I meant that I’m sorry that your parents argue about you, even if it’s only because they love you.’

‘Oh,’ Max said and he smiled. It wasn’t an actual smile, because Max never really smiles. But his eyes opened a little wider and he tilted his head a tiny bit to the right. That’s Max’s version of a smile. ‘Thanks,’ he said, and I knew that it was a real thanks.

CHAPTER 6

Max is in the bathroom stall. He is making a poop, which Max does not like to do outside the home. He almost never makes a poop in a public restroom. But it’s 1.15 and there are still two hours of school left and he couldn’t hold it anymore. He always tries to poop before going to bed every night, and if he can’t, he tries again in the morning before he leaves for school. He actually pooped this morning right after breakfast, so this is a bonus poop.

Max hates bonus poops. Max hates all surprises.

Whenever he poops at school, Max tries to use the handicapped bathroom near the nurse’s office so he can be alone, but today the janitor was cleaning puke off the floor because when a kid says that he’s going to be sick, the nurse always sends him to that bathroom.

When Max has to use the regular bathroom, I stand outside the door and warn him if someone is coming. He doesn’t like to have anyone in the bathroom when he is pooping, including me. But he doesn’t like even more to be surprised, so I am allowed to come in, but only if it’s an emergency.

An emergency means that someone is coming to use the bathroom.

When I tell him that someone is coming, Max lifts his feet up off the floor so no one can see him and waits until the bathroom is empty again before he finishes pooping. If he is lucky, the person never even knows that Max is on the toilet, unless the person has to poop, too, and knocks on the door to the stall. Then Max puts his feet back on the floor and waits until the person leaves.

One of Max’s problems with pooping is that it takes him a long time, even when he is sitting on his own toilet at home. He has been in the bathroom for ten minutes already and he is probably not close to being finished. It’s possible that he hasn’t even started. He could still be carefully arranging his pants on top of his sneakers so they don’t touch the floor.

That’s when I see trouble come walking down the hallway. Tommy Swinden has just left his classroom at the far end of the hall and is heading in my direction. As he walks, he swipes the maps of the thirteen colonies off the bulletin board outside Mrs Vera’s class. He laughs and kicks the papers across the floor. Tommy Swinden is in fifth grade and he does not like Max.

He has never liked Max.

But now he doesn’t like Max even more. Three months ago, Tommy Swinden took his Swiss Army knife to school to show it off to his friends. Tommy was standing at the edge of the woods, whittling a stick to show the other boys how sharp his knife was, and Max saw the knife and told the teacher. But Max doesn’t know how to be quiet about these kinds of things. He ran up to Mrs Davis and shouted, ‘Tommy Swinden has a knife! A knife!’ A whole bunch of kids heard Max, and a few of the little kids screamed and ran in the direction of Tommy, which scared them even more. Tommy Swinden got in a lot of trouble. He was kicked out of school for a week, kicked off the bus for the rest of the school year, and had to go to these after-school classes to learn about being a good person.

That’s a lot of trouble for a fifth grader.

Even though Mrs Davis and Mrs Gosk and the rest of the teachers all told Max that he did the right thing by reporting the knife (because weapons are not allowed at school and this is a very serious rule), none of them bothered to teach Max about how to tell on a kid without letting everyone on the playground know that you did. I don’t get it. Mrs Hume spends all this time teaching Max how to take turns and ask for help but no one takes the time to teach Max something so important. Don’t the teachers know that Tommy Swinden is going to kill Max for getting him in so much trouble?

Maybe they don’t because most of the teachers in Max’s school are girls, and maybe they never got into any trouble when they were in school. Maybe none of them ever brought a knife to the playground or had trouble pooping in the bathroom. Maybe they don’t know what it is like to be a kid in a lot of trouble, and that’s probably why they spend their lunch hours saying things like, ‘I don’t know what that Tommy Swinden was thinking when he brought that knife to school.’

I know what he was thinking. He was thinking that his friends might stop calling him Tommy the ’Tard for not being able to read if he could show them that he knew how to whittle a stick with his Swiss Army knife. That’s the kind of thing kids do. They try to cover up their problems with things like Swiss Army knives.

But I don’t think the teachers understand this, which is probably why no one taught Max how to tell a teacher that a fifth grader has a knife without telling the entire world at the same time. So now Tommy Swinden, the fifth-grade boy who can’t read and owns a knife and is twice as big as Max, is heading for the bathroom while Max is inside, trying to poop.

‘Max!’ I say as I pass through the restroom door. ‘Tommy Swinden is coming!’

Max lets out a groan as his sneakers disappear from the crack between the stall and the floor. I want to pass through the stall door and stand alongside him, so he isn’t all alone, but I know I can’t. He wouldn’t want me to see him on the toilet, and he knows that I can be more helpful outside the stall, where I can see what he can’t.

Tommy Swinden, who is as tall as the art teacher and almost as wide as the gym teacher, comes into the bathroom and walks over to one of the toilets on the wall. He takes a quick peek under the stalls, sees no feet, and probably thinks he’s alone. Then he looks back at the door to the bathroom, looks right through me, and reaches back, pulling his underwear from the crack in his butt. I see people do this all the time, because I spend a lot of time with people who think they are alone. When your underwear is stuck in the crack of your butt, it’s called a wedgie and it can’t be too comfortable. I’ve never had a wedgie because Max didn’t imagine me with a wedgie. Thank goodness.

Tommy Swinden turns back to the toilet on the wall and pees. When he’s done, he shakes his thing a little before buttoning and zipping his jeans. Not the way I once saw a kid shaking his thing in the handicapped bathroom near the nurse’s office when Max asked me to check and see if anyone was in there. I have no idea what that boy was doing, but it was more than just a shake. I don’t like to peek in on people using the bathroom, especially when they are tugging on their thing, but Max hates to knock on the bathroom door because he never knows what to say when someone knocks on the door when he’s in there. He used to say, ‘Max is pooping!’ but then he got in trouble when a kid told the teacher what he said.

The teacher told Max that it’s not appropriate to say that you’re pooping. ‘Just say I’m in here the next time someone knocks,’ she told Max.

‘But that sounds silly,’ he said. ‘The person won’t know who I am. I can’t just say I’m in here.’

‘Fine,’ the teacher said in a way that teachers tell kids to do ridiculous things when they’re frustrated and don’t want to talk anymore. ‘Tell them who you are, then.’

So now when someone knocks on the bathroom door, Max says, ‘Occupied by Max Delaney!’ It makes people either laugh or stare at the door with a funny expression.

I don’t blame them.

Tommy Swinden is finished at the toilet and is now standing at the sink, reaching for the faucet, just about to turn the knob and fill the bathroom with the sound of running water, when he hears a plop! from the stall where Max is hiding.

‘Huh?’ he says, bending down again to see if there are any feet in the stall. He doesn’t see any, so he walks over to the first stall and bangs on the door real hard. Hard enough to make the whole stall shake. ‘I know you’re in there!’ he says. ‘I can see you through the cracks!’

I don’t think Tommy knows that it’s Max behind the door, because the cracks between the door and the wall are too small to see his whole face. But that’s what is good about being one of the biggest kids in school. You can bang on a stall door and not worry about who is behind it, because you can beat up just about every kid at school.

Imagine what that must feel like.

Max doesn’t answer, so Tommy bangs again. ‘Who’s in there? I want to know!’

‘Don’t say anything, Max!’ I say from my spot by the door. ‘He can’t get in there. He’ll have to leave eventually!’

But I’m wrong, because when Max doesn’t answer the second time, Tommy gets down on his hands and knees and peeks his head under the door.

‘Max the Moron,’ he says, and I can hear the smile on his face. Not a nice smile. A rotten one. ‘I can’t believe it’s you. It’s my lucky day. What’s the matter? Couldn’t hold that last one in?’

‘No,’ Max shouts, and I can already hear the panic in his voice. ‘It was already halfway out!’

Everything about this situation is bad.

Max is trapped inside a public bathroom, a place that already frightens him. His pants are wrapped around his ankles and he probably hasn’t finished pooping. Tommy Swinden is on the other side of the stall door, and Tommy definitely wants to hurt Max. They are alone. Except for me, of course, but they might as well be alone for all the help that I can be.

It’s the way Max answered Tommy that scares me the most. There was more than panic in his voice. There was fear. Like when people in the movies see the ghost or the monster for the first time. Max just saw a monster peek underneath the stall door and he is frightened. He might already be close to getting stuck, and that is never good.

‘Open this door, dickhead,’ Tommy says, pulling his head back and standing up. ‘Make this easy on me and all I’ll do is bowl you.’

I don’t know what bowl means, but I have visions of Tommy Swinden rolling Max’s head across the bathroom like a bowling ball.

‘Occupied by Max Delaney!’ Max shouts, his voice screeching like a little girl. ‘Occupied by Max Delaney!’

‘Last chance, moron. Open it up or I’m coming in!’

‘Occupied by Max Delaney!’ Max screams again. ‘Occupied by Max Delaney!’

Tommy Swinden gets back down on his hands and knees, ready to crawl under the door, and I don’t know what to do.

Max needs more help than most kids in his class, and I am always there for him, ready to lend a hand. Even on the day that he tattled on Tommy Swinden, I was there, telling him to whisper, begging him to ‘Slow down! Don’t rush! Stop yelling!’ Max wouldn’t listen to me that day because there was a knife at school and that was such an important rule to break that he could not control himself. It was like the whole world was broken and he needed to find a teacher to fix it. I didn’t stop him that day, but I tried.

At least I knew what to do.

But I don’t know what to do now. Tommy Swinden is about to crawl under the door and enter a tiny bathroom stall where Max is trapped, probably perched on top of the toilet, knees in his chest, pants around his ankles, frozen in place. If he’s not crying yet, he soon will be, and by the time Tommy has made it all the way under the door, Max will probably be screaming, a high-pitched, breathless scream that paints his face red and fills his eyes with tears. He will ball his hands into fists and bury his face behind his forearms, closing his eyes, and screaming the wispy, almost silent screams that make me think of a dog whistle. Full of air but almost no sound at all.

Before any teacher gets here, Tommy Swinden will bowl Max, whatever that means. Even though I’m sure that being bowled would be bad for any kid, it’s going to be a lot worse for Max, because that is how Max is. Things stay with Max for ever. He never forgets. And even the tiniest, littlest things can permanently change him. Whatever bowling is, it’s going to change Max for ever and ever. I know it and I don’t know what to do.

‘Help!’ I want to scream. ‘Someone help my friend!’

But only Max would hear.

Tommy’s head disappears under the stall and I shout, ‘Fight, Max! Fight! Don’t let him in there!’

I don’t know what makes me say it. I’m surprised by the words as they come out of my mouth. It’s not a great idea. It’s not smart or even original. It’s just the only thing left to do. Max must fight or he will be bowled.

Tommy’s head and shoulders are now under the stall and I can see that he is about to pull his hips and legs under in one quick movement, and then he will be inside the stall with Max, standing over his small, shaking body, ready to hurt him. Ready to bowl him.

I stand like a dummy outside the stall. Part of me wants to go in, to stand by my friend, but Max does not like it when people see him naked or pooping. I am as stuck as Max has ever been.

Then there is another scream, and this time it’s not Max. This time it is Tommy who screams. It’s not Max’s terrified, locked-up scream. It’s a different kind of scream. A more knowing scream. Not panicked or frightened, really, but the scream of someone who can’t believe what has just happened. As he screams, Tommy starts to say something and he tries to stand up, forgetting the door above him, and he slams his back into the bottom of the door, causing him to scream again, this time in pain. Then the door flies open and Max is standing there, pants nearly pulled up but not buttoned or zipped, his legs straddling Tommy’s head.

‘Run!’ I shout and he does, stepping on Tommy’s hand, causing Tommy to scream again. Max runs past me, yanking his pants up the rest of the way, and then he is out the door. I follow. Instead of turning left toward his classroom, he turns right, buttoning and zipping his pants without stopping.

‘Where are you going?’

‘I still need a bathroom,’ he says. ‘Maybe the nurse’s bathroom is clean now.’

‘What happened to Tommy?’ I ask. ‘What did you do?’

‘I pooped on his head,’ Max says.

‘You pooped with someone else in the bathroom?’ I ask.

I can’t believe it. The fact that he pooped on Tommy Swinden’s head is unbelievable, but the fact that he managed a poop in the presence of another human person is even more amazing.

‘Just a little one,’ Max says. ‘I was almost finished when he came in.’ He takes a few more steps down the hall before adding, ‘I pooped this morning, so this was a lot less poop this time. Remember? It was a bonus poop.’

CHAPTER 7

Max is worried that Tommy will tell on him the same way that he told on Tommy about the Swiss Army knife. But I know that he won’t. No kid wants his friends or even his teachers to know that he was pooped on. Tommy will want to kill Max now. Actually kill him. Make his heart stop beating and whatever else it takes to kill a human person.

But we’ll worry about that day when it comes.

Max can live with the fear of death just as long as he doesn’t get in trouble for pooping on Tommy Swinden’s head. Kids are afraid of dying all the time, so for Max, being afraid that Tommy Swinden might choke him to death or punch him in the nose is normal. But kids don’t get suspended from school for pooping on the head of a fifth grader. That would happen only in a broken world.

I tell Max not to worry about getting in trouble. He only half believes me, but that’s enough for him to stay unstuck.

Besides, Max pooped on Tommy Swinden three days ago and we haven’t seen Tommy since. At first I thought he was absent from school, so I went to Mrs Parenti’s classroom to see if he was there, and he was. Sitting in the first row, closest to the teacher, probably so she can keep an eye on him.

I’m not sure what Tommy is thinking. Maybe he is so embarrassed about having poop on his head that he has decided to forget about the whole thing. Or maybe he’s so angry that he is planning to torture Max before he kills him. Like the kids who burn ants with magnifying glasses at recess instead of just stepping on them and smearing them on the bottom of their sneakers.

That’s what Max thinks, and even though I tell him that he’s wrong, I know he is probably right.

You can’t poop on the head of a kid like Tommy Swinden and expect to get away with it.

CHAPTER 8

I saw Graham today. I passed her on the way to the cafeteria. She waved to me.

She’s starting to fade away.

I can’t believe it.

I could see her spiky hair and toothy grin through her hand as she waved it back and forth in front of her face.

Imaginary friends can take a long time to disappear or a short time to disappear, but I don’t think Graham has much time left.

Her human friend is a girl named Meghan, and she is six years old. Graham has been alive for only two years, but she is my oldest imaginary friend and I don’t want her to go. She is the only real friend I have except for Max.

I am afraid for her.

I am afraid for me, too.

Someday I will raise my hand in front of my face and see Max’s face on the other side of it, and then I’ll know that I am fading away, too. Someday I am going to die, if that’s what happens to imaginary friends.

It must be. Right?

I want to talk to Graham, but I don’t know what to say. I wonder if she knows that she is disappearing.

If she doesn’t know, should I tell her?

There are lots of imaginary friends in the world who I never get to meet because they do not leave their houses. Most imaginary friends aren’t lucky enough to be able to go to school or walk around on their own like me and Graham. Max’s mom brought us to one of her friends’ houses once and I met three imaginary friends. They were all sitting in tiny chairs in front of a chalkboard. Their arms were crossed and they were frozen like statues while this little girl named Jessica recited the alphabet to them and asked them to answer math problems. But the imaginary friends couldn’t walk or talk. When I walked into the playroom, they just blinked at me from their chairs. That was it.

Just blinked.

Those kinds of imaginary friends never last long. I once saw an imaginary friend pop up in Max’s kindergarten classroom for fifteen minutes and then just disappear. It was like someone inflated her in the middle of the room. She got bigger and bigger and bigger like one of those people-shaped balloons they sell at parades until she was almost as big as me. A big, pink girl with pigtails in her hair and yellow flowers for feet. But when story time was done, it was like someone popped her with a pin. She shrank and shrank until I couldn’t see her anymore.

I was scared watching that pink girl disappear. Fifteen minutes is nothing.

She never even heard the whole story.

But Graham has been around for so long. She has been my friend for two years. I can’t believe that she is dying.

I want to be mad at her human friend, Meghan, because it is Meghan’s fault that Graham is dying. She doesn’t believe in Graham anymore.

When Graham dies, Meghan’s mother will ask Meghan where her friend has gone, and Meghan will say something like, ‘Graham doesn’t live here anymore,’ or ‘I don’t know where Graham is,’ or ‘Graham went on vacation.’ And her mother will turn and smile, thinking her little girl is growing up.

But no. That is not what’s going to happen. Graham is not going on any vacation. Graham is not moving to another city or country.

Graham is going to die.

You stopped believing, little girl, and now my friend is going to die. Just because you are the only human person who can see and hear Graham doesn’t mean that she is not real. I can see and hear Graham, too. She is my friend.

Sometimes when you and Max are in class, we meet at the swing set to talk.

We used to play tag when you and Max had recess together.

Graham called me a hero once when I stopped Max from running out in front of a moving car, and even though I don’t think I was a hero, it still felt good.

And now she is going to die because you don’t believe in her anymore.

We are sitting in the cafeteria. Max is in music class and Meghan is eating lunch. I can tell by the way that Meghan is talking to the other girls at her lunch table that she doesn’t need Graham like she used to. She is smiling. She is laughing. She is following the conversation with her eyes. She is even talking every now and then. She is part of a group now.

She’s a whole new Meghan.

‘How are you feeling today?’ I ask, hoping this might get Graham to mention the disappearing first.

She does.

‘I know what’s happening if that’s what you mean,’ she says. She sounds so sad, but it also sounds like she has given up, too. Like she has already surrendered.

‘Oh,’ I say, and then I don’t know what to say for a moment. I stare at her, and then I pretend to look around, over my shoulder and to my left, acting as if a sound in the corner of the cafeteria has caught my attention. I can’t look at her because it means I’m looking through her. Finally, I turn back to her. I force myself to look. ‘What does it feel like?’

‘It doesn’t feel like anything.’

She holds up her hands to show me, and I can see her face, no smile this time, on the other side of her hands. It is as if her hands were made of wax paper.

‘I don’t get it,’ I say. ‘What happened? When you talk to Meghan, can she still hear you?’

‘Oh yeah. And she can still see me, too. We just spent the first ten minutes of recess playing hopscotch together.’

‘Then why doesn’t she believe in you anymore?’

Graham sighs. Then she sighs again.

‘It’s not that she doesn’t believe in me. She doesn’t need me anymore. She used to be afraid to talk to kids. When she was little, she had a stutter. It’s gone now, but when she stuttered, she missed out on a lot of time talking with kids and making friends. But she’s catching up now. A couple weeks ago she had a play date with Annie. It was her first play date ever. Now she and Annie are talking all the time. They even got in trouble in class yesterday for talking when they were supposed to be reading. And when the girls saw us playing hopscotch today, they came over and played, too.’

‘What’s a stutter?’ I ask. I wonder if Max has a stutter, too.

‘It’s when words don’t come out right. Meghan used to get stuck on words. She knew what the word was but couldn’t make her mouth say it. A lot of times I would say the word really slowly for her, and then she could say it. But now she only stutters when she’s afraid or nervous or surprised.’

‘She was cured?’

‘Sort of,’ Graham says. ‘She worked with Mrs Riner during the week and with Mr Davidoff after school. It took a long time but now she can talk just fine, so she’s making friends.’

Max works with Mrs Riner, too. I wonder if he can be cured. I wonder if Mr Davidoff is the therapist who Max’s mom wants him to see.

‘So what are you going to do?’ I ask. ‘I don’t want you to disappear. How can you stop it?’

I’m worried about Graham, but I feel like I need to ask these questions for me, too, in case she disappears right in front of me. I need to ask them while I still can.

Graham opens her mouth to talk and then she stops. She closes her eyes. She shakes her head and rubs her hands over her eyes. I wonder if she is stuttering now. But then she starts to cry. I try to remember if I have ever seen an imaginary friend cry.

I don’t think so.

I watch as she dips her chin into her chest and sobs. Tears stream down her cheeks, and when one finally drips off her chin, I watch as it falls, splashes on the table and then vanishes completely.

Like Graham will do before long.

I feel like I’m back in the boys’ bathroom. Tommy Swinden is crawling under the stall. Max is standing on top of the toilet, his pants around his legs. And I am standing in the corner, not knowing what to say or what to do.

I wait until Graham’s sobs turn to sniffles. I wait until the tears stop running. I wait until she can open her eyes again.

Then I speak. ‘I have an idea.’ I wait for Graham to say something.

She only sniffles.

‘I have a plan,’ I say again. ‘A plan to save you.’

‘Yeah?’ Graham says, but I can tell that she doesn’t believe me.

‘Yes,’ I say. ‘All you need to do is be Meghan’s friend.’

But that’s not right and I know it as soon as I say it.

‘No, wait,’ I say. ‘That’s not right.’

I pause. The idea is there. I just have to find a way to say it right.

Say it without stuttering, I think.

Then I know.

‘I have a plan,’ I say again. ‘We need to make sure that Meghan still needs you. We have to find a way to make it impossible for Meghan to live without you.’

CHAPTER 9

I can’t believe we didn’t think of this sooner. Meghan’s teacher, Mrs Pandolfe, gives her class a spelling test every Friday, and Meghan does not do well on these tests.

I don’t think that Max has ever spelled a word wrong, but Graham says that Meghan spells about six words wrong each week, which is about half of the words on her test, even though Graham didn’t know that half of twelve is six. I thought it was kind of weird that she didn’t know this, because it seems so obvious. I mean, if six plus six equals twelve, how could you not know that half of twelve is six?

Then again, I probably didn’t know what half of twelve was when Max and me were in first grade together.

But I think I did.

Graham and I spent Meghan’s lunch period making a list of all of Meghan’s problems. I told Graham that we needed to find a problem that she could fix, and then, after she fixed it, Meghan would see how much she still needed Graham.

Graham thought it was a great idea. ‘That might work,’ she said, her eyes wide and bright for the first time since she started disappearing. ‘That’s a great idea. It might really work.’

But I think that Graham would think that any idea is a great idea, because she is fading away more and more by the minute.

I tried to make her laugh by telling her that her ears had already disappeared, since she never had any to begin with, but she didn’t even smile at my joke. She’s scared. She says she feels less real today, like she’s going to fall into the sky and just float away. I started to tell her about satellites in space and how their orbits can decay and they can float away, too, to see if that is how she feels, but then I stopped.

I don’t think she wants to talk about it.

Max taught me about decaying orbits last year. He read about it in a book. I am lucky because Max is smart and reads a lot, so I get to learn a lot, too. That’s why I know that half of twelve is six and that satellites can fall out of orbit and float away for ever.

I am so glad that Max is my friend and not Meghan. Meghan can’t even spell the word boat.

So we made a list of Meghan’s problems. Of course, we couldn’t write the list down on paper, since neither one of us can pick up a pencil, but it was short enough that we were able to memorize it.

Stutters when she’s upset.

Afraid of the dark.

Bad speller.

Can’t tie her shoelaces.

Throws a temper tantrum every night before bed.

Can’t zip up her coat.

Can’t kick a ball past the pitcher.

It is not a good list, because Graham can’t help her with a lot of these problems. If Graham could tie shoelaces or zip a zipper, she might be able to tie Meghan’s sneakers or zip her coat, but she can’t. I know only one imaginary friend who could touch and move things in the human world, and he wouldn’t help us even if I begged him.

And I’m too afraid of him to go see him, anyway.

I didn’t know what a temper tantrum was, so Graham had to explain it to me. It sounds a lot like when Max gets stuck. Meghan doesn’t like to go to bed, so when her mom says that it’s time to brush her teeth, she starts screaming and stamping her feet, and sometimes her daddy has to pick her up and carry her into the bathroom.

‘This happens every night?’ I ask Graham.

‘Yeah. She turns red and gets all sweaty and eventually she starts crying. She cries herself to sleep a lot of nights. I feel so bad for her. Nothing that her parents or I say can make it any better.’

‘Wow,’ I say, because I can’t imagine how annoying it must be to listen to someone have a temper tantrum every night.

Max doesn’t get stuck too often, but when he does, it’s like he is throwing a temper tantrum on the inside. He gets quiet and his hands make fists and he shakes a little, but he doesn’t turn red or sweat or scream. I think he is doing all of those things on the inside, but on the outside he just gets stuck. And sometimes it takes a long time before he gets unstuck.

But at least it’s not loud or annoying when it happens. And it never happens just because it’s time to go to bed. Max likes to go to bed as long as it’s the right time.

Eight-thirty.

If it’s too early or too late, he gets upset.

I couldn’t think of a way that Graham could help Meghan with her temper tantrums, so that didn’t leave much else on the list. And that’s what brought us back to the spelling tests.

‘How can I help her with spelling?’ Graham asked.

‘I’ll show you.’

Mrs Pandolfe keeps the weekly spelling words hanging on chart paper in front of the room, just like Mrs Gosk does in her classroom. She takes the list down on Thursday afternoon, so Graham and I spend the last hour of the day standing in front of the chart paper, memorizing each word. I’ve never paid a lot of attention to Max’s spelling tests, and I don’t really listen to Mrs Gosk’s spelling lessons, so it was harder than I thought it would be. A lot harder.

But after an hour, Graham knew how to spell the words perfectly.

Tomorrow she’ll stand next to Meghan as she takes the test, and when Meghan spells a word wrong, Graham will tell her how to spell it right. It’s an especially good plan because Meghan has to take a spelling test every week, so this won’t just be a one-time thing. She can help Meghan every week. Maybe she can even start helping Meghan on other tests, too.

I think this might really work, if Graham doesn’t disappear tonight. An imaginary friend named Mr Finger once told me that most imaginary friends disappear when their human friends are asleep, but I think he was probably making that up to impress me. How could anyone know that? I almost told Graham to try to keep Meghan awake tonight, just in case Mr Finger was telling the truth, but Meghan is only six years old, and little kids like that can’t stay up all night. She would eventually fall asleep no matter what Graham did.

So I’m just hoping that Graham makes it through the night.

CHAPTER 10

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